I know saying sorry will not change how you feel. But somewhere deep down I hope and pray it does. I should have listened to you. I should have listened when you said stop bringing up our past. I should have appreciated and valued you more instead of focusing on the trivial negative things in our relationship that didn't actually exist.
I got in my own way. I got in the way of our relationship. I got in the way of something that was so pure and genuine. You deserve nothing but the best and I know I have the ability to give it to you but what I did during our relationship was mirror all of my short comings onto you.
I always thought that God send you especially for me and I still believe it. If i could turn back time I would and regret all the things I've done that impacted our relationship.
I have realized the error in my ways and I will do anything to make right with you. I now understand how my selfish need influenced our relationship.
I really hope that you find it in your heart to forgive me and not to throw our relationship away. We've only been together for a few months but we've striven in certain aspects. It's only been a few days but I miss you so much. It feels like a part of me have died.
I will cherish and treasure you. And appreciate everything you do for me because you do it out of love. I want to do it not just to make right with you, but to make us right.
I truly hope that you find it within you to forgive me, hold my hand and join me on a new journey of better experiences.
Your fat bum